Pissed Off

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 19:06:51 GMT

Wow today I got really fucking pissed off. I have never been this pissed in a long time. I have been letting to many things build up and thinking to much about how everyone in the USA, some Coms and one Other (Nick D) have been assholes to me or done things that offended me very much, that I finale exploded. I got so fucking pissed off I became the side of me that I hate to show. I screamed on the top of my lungs, punched walls till my knuckles bleed and went insane. I don’t want people to see me like that I’m not insane I’m a nice guy, maybe too nice, but I do hold things in too much so maybe I should blow up on them and show that I’m not putting up with so much shit any more. I still love these guys as my friends and it’s going to be hard to get them to understand that I’m not putting up with too much shit anymore. It’s going to be hard because well pretty much they are all narrow minded, porn obsessed, homophobic shits. Scott is the king of narrow minded, homophobic shits. Getting him to see things in another way that is not his way of thinking is like pulling his fucking teeth out.

Just about every one has done things that have pissed me off or hurt me in some way. Just this weekend Lemon did something that really, really fucking pissed me off and hurt me; it was like something Shock would do. This is what happened me, VoD and Lemon after the show we went to Taco Bell/ Pizza Hut, just before that I had put $15 of the $30 I had on gas and I was going to buy everyone their food. We were all going to get the same meal and I thought it was going to more than $5 for the meal so I told Vod and Lemon that one of use is going to have to get something cheaper. I said Lemon should get the cheaper thing since I always buy food for him, but he goes “oh no I’m not getting anything cheaper I’ll just keep the games that you let me borrow”. I don’t care if he was joking which I know he was or if he kept the games what pisses me off and hurts me is the fact that he would say this. I let him borrow things from me out of the friendship we have and to turn around and try to get something he wants by taking avantage of our friendship by saying something like that hurts. So from on I’m not buying Lemon any food any more I have been way to nice to him. I don’t give a shit any more he can starve and I really hate to see people starve, that why I always buy people food.

Nick D makes fun of the way I talk and my believes about women and such far too many time that now I’m fed up with it. What does it make him feel that he’s better than me that he can talk down to me if I say something incorrectly or that I have never hug/kissed a girl or have never been in a relationship. I AM NOT LIKE EVER OTHER FUCKING GUY IN THIS WORLD. I don’t need to be in and out of relationships just for the high feeling it makes me sick when people do this. I’m going to hopefully find the right women one day and she’s going to be the only one I ever need so he should just leave me the fuck alone about that. I’m not like ever other guy. I don’t like porn I find it disgusting, degrading to women and degrading to those who watch it but I don’t judge them because of it so they should do the same to me. I don’t know what the fuck was wrong with me the day I bought that porn from Matt and what fuck was wrong with him selling porn in the room next to his seven-year-old son. Now I think I would have the balls to say NO if it happened again. Well at least I got rid of the thing today I melted it in the microwave so at least its gone now I just have to burn the box then its gone for good.

Other people have done other things to me but from now on I’m just going to say NO to things and no means NO and if they don’t get it then I guess I can just show them how pissed I can get to make them understand.

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 22:00:33 GMT

Yes almost vaction going to be so cool becasue school sucks ass and being away from it kicks ass.

djzorin

Pissed Off